What I’m Struggling With: Battling Imposter Syndrome
In a world where confidence often hides vulnerability, there’s a silent struggle that many of us face: the nagging imposter syndrome.
Inspired by my recent participation in Women in Dev’s Imposter Syndrome workshop hosted by Shahroo Izadi in their Kindness Lounge at Women Deliver, I’ll be peeling back the layers of self-doubt by sharing my own unique experiences that I’m sure all women working in the sector can relate to. I aim to unveil the power of authenticity and the journey towards reclaiming oneself.
No matter how confident we are, most of us have had moments where we cowered due to imposter syndrome, either because of our own insecurities or because other people made us feel insufficient.
In the early chapters of my adulthood, my mind became a battleground of overthinking. The question of my worthiness echoed through my thoughts, casting a shadow on everything I did.
Amidst this mountain of self-doubt, fear often emerged victorious, overshadowing the flickering flame of my faith. However, within the depths of my being, this faith remained firm, which for me personally is very soothing.
There are moments when I find myself longing for the comforting embrace of friendship, a haven to seek solace. In those moments, I often yearn for external validation, even though I’m aware of my own accomplishments and capabilities.
The need for their affirmation leads me to inquire about their views on my work and how I can get better. I remain receptive to their criticism, understanding its potential to help me grow.
Yet, in the quiet corners of my mind, a lingering question arises: Do I seek feedback solely for my own evolution or to impress the watchful eyes of others?
The relentless battle against the demon of imposter syndrome rages on among many people. It spares no one, not even the most refined individuals who outwardly exude confidence. Within the depths of their being, a faint voice emerges, casting shadows of doubt and igniting the flames of anxiety, fueled by the unknown.
In these turbulent moments, the presence of a trusted mentor and genuine friends becomes a guiding light, gently leading us along the path of our purpose and providing unwavering support during the stormy seasons of self-doubt.
As the chains of imposter syndrome fall away, a metamorphosis occurs—a rebirth of oneself. The tasks that once loomed with doubt now stand as conquered territories. With each step you take, you exude unwavering confidence, knowing that you are enough.
As you embark on the journey of self-empowerment, your focus turns inward, setting the stage for thriving in every space you find yourself in. Your self-perception shields you from external negativity aimed to shatter your confidence.
In this remarkable chapter of my own journey, I feel empowered to move confidently in the direction of greatness in all areas of my life. I have no room for the indulgence of self-pity, self-doubt, or the gnawing notion of inadequacy. Instead, I continually affirm and celebrate myself in ways that are not superficial but empowering.
Overcoming imposter syndrome starts from within, as I wholeheartedly recognise and declare, “I am good at what I do.”
With this as my mantra, each morning, I rise feeling fully equipped to give my very best, and speak clearly about what I believe in.
Beria is a program officer at Zizi Afrique Foundation in Nairobi, Kenya. She has extensive expertise in education research, working to improve learning and skilling outcomes for youth furthest left behind to help them navigate work and life. She holds an MBA with a major in Strategic Management and Human Resources Management. Her passions include learning about different cultures and regions around the world, and her main goal is to encourage, inspire positivity in those around her.